Monday, December 28, 2009

AVATAR!!!!

Baru abis nonton Avatar hari ini… Ya ampuuunnn keren banget filmnya!!!

Spesial efeknya kerennn, ceritanya seru, beautiful landscape, sangat-sangat detil… Two thumbs up deh!!!!

Maybe it’s my kinda thing banget… fantasy world, magical things, beautiful landscape, new language (kok jadi mengingatkan ama Lord of the Rings ya)

And btw, who is this Sam Worthington anyway? Must check that out, he he…

Anyway… bakal banyak film bagus yang pengen ditonton nih, diantaranya: Sherlock Holmes, Eat Pray Love, Up in the air, and many others.

Dipikir2 si Elizabeth Gilbert ini gile juga ya… awalnya adalah wanita Amerika biasa yang sedang punya banyak problems dalam hidupnya… Mimpi apa kalo beberapa tahun kemudian bakal ada film tentang dia dan dirinya bakal diperankan oleh Julia Roberts…

Kok jadi ngelantur. Kalau ada kesempatan, pengen juga nonton Avatar 3D (hanya di Rio). Akankah kesampaian?? Huhu… semoga iya…

Tambahan lagi: Hari ini makan siang, nonton, dan makan malam sama flatmate baru. Cewe orang Rusia, namanya Katarina. Orangnya keliatannya baik, seneng ngomong/ngobrol juga, seperti Karen. (Buhuuu miss her badly)

Oh iya, pas di pesawat kemaren juga sempet nonton UP. Bagus banget juga, sangat sangat mengharukan… berurai air mata deh nontonnya. Untung orang-orang di sebelah kiri dan kanan lagi pada tidur, jadi ngga ada yang ngeh!! :”>

Cheers!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The Winner Takes It All

Lagu dan video clip kesukaan:

The Winner Takes It All

Enjoy :)

(ahh… jadi pengen karaoke-an lagi di Mabuhay…)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A time for change

Tough times…  tough times ahead…

A lot of things to think about…

A lot of responsibilities now… it’s different from a few years ago.

Must avoid making haste decisions…

Must get myself together and be strong…

Definitely not the time to be melancholic.

Semoga dipermudah dan diperlancar semuanya yah… Amiin…

Wishing for the best… whatever the best actually means.

Friday, November 20, 2009

The CEO visit to Macae

I think my pendings in Brazil in terms of work are all done now.
Met the CEO, shook his hand, gave him my best smile. :P
It`s time now to continue with my life, back in my home country... hehehe

Monday, September 21, 2009

Idul Fitri 1430H

Pertama, mau ngucapin: Met Hari Raya Idul Fitri, Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin. Mohon maaf kalau selama ini banyak salah… Semoga kita semua masih diberi umur untuk bertemu Ramadhan tahun depan… Amiinn…

Kedua, mau bilang, there’s always the first time for everything, :) This month, there are two: bought my first red shoes and did my first manicure. Yeay! :p

Ketiga, sedang berniat, untuk menyemangati diri dalam menjalani hari2 di sini… Meyakinkan diri kalo aku deserve kehidupan yang lebih baik, kesempatan yang lebih baik, dan bahwa kalau aku berusaha insyaAllah cita-cita dan impian2 itu bisa tercapai… (semoga yah…)

Oh well, apa lagi yang bisa ditulis. Selain obrolan lewat telpon, sms, dan chat, tidak ada rasanya lebaran di sini. Makan siang dengan lasagna, ga ada bandingannya tentunya dengan bebek cabe ijo atau rendang atau sambel goreng ati. Tapi tidak boleh jadi berkecil hati, semuanya akan menjadi lebih baik… secepatnya…

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Quotation

Found this on the web:

At age 4 success is not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is having friends.
At age 16 success is having a drivers license.
At age 20 success is having sex.
At age 35 success is having money.
At age 50 success is having money.
At age 60 success is having sex.
At age 70 success is having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is having friends.
At age 80 success is not peeing in your pants.

 

hahaha…

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Just a thought

beberapa tahun yang lalu, sekitar awal 2006, kita pernah ngobrol2… some single girls stranded in Germany, looking towards the future with some sort of  uneasy feeling… not knowing what’s gonna happen next. Worrying if the prince charming was coming soon or if this person does actually exist. 

I, and my big mouth, claimed that we should take advantage of this situation. Unlike others, we were free to go after whatever we want, to be wherever we want to be. We had no one (yet) that becomes a burden for us. We can decide our future without any restriction, we were free.

And even though we all hate being alone and single, isn’t being free a great thing? It’s a quite good consolation.

Then, years later, now, here I am. Still not knowing where I should be and what I should after. Though I’m determined to leave this place for a better life, I’m still not sure where I should be going.

Between that moment and now, life has been fantastic and I am so grateful. Through all the ups and downs, I believe the whole experience has enriched me.

I really hope that soon I’ll see a light at the end of the tunnel I’m in.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Lessons learned

Any action taken, despite being correct or not,  is always better than not taking any action or ignorance.

I came to think that, most problems start with communication failures.

Monday, August 24, 2009

This kind of life

Jangankan buat mulai browsing2 dan lamar2 kerjaan…

I dont even have time to do basic stuff like:

get my hair cut, wash my clothes, go to supermarket, maintain contacts with friends (old and new, far and near), read the news, eat proper meal, sleep…

On a brighter side, the other day I updated my CV. Realized that thanks to my company, I was able to write more, especially on the ‘Trainings’ part.

Semoga all this madness, oops I mean this job, ada hikmahnya ya, suatu saat nanti…

Friday, August 21, 2009

…

sedang berusaha untuk menarik napas panjang dan menyerahkan semua kepada Allah…

Ramadhan is coming… Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih baik dari sebelum-sebelumnya… Semoga berkesan dan dapat merasakan nikmatnya…

Semoga bisa menjadi salah satu turning point dalam hidupku…

Amiinn…

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Lagi browsing2, nyasar ke blog ini. Mayan juga buat nambah2 bacaan.

Saturday, August 08, 2009

:-S

Aduuhhh… tolong…help…socorro…

Banyak masalah di kerjaan… dikejar-kejar dan diomelin banyak orang….

stress stress stress

Monday, August 03, 2009

no title

berasa capek.

need some motivation booster. :(

Monday, July 27, 2009

For networking’s sake…

Malam kemarin aku diajak ke acara kumpul2 klub ibu-ibu expat.

Acaranya di semacam pousada di depan danau, ga jauh dari rumahku, sekitar 10 menit naik mobil. 80s-90s music.

Ngobrol2, ketemu orang2 baru… walaupun rata2 sudah pada bapak2 dan ibu2 berumur… :-S lumayan menambah networking… walaupun merasa agak2 nyasar dateng ke sana… :D

Liked the music though. Mengingatkan jaman masih muda dulu :p

Ini salah satu contohnya… Enak juga… :)

Sonique – It feels so good

Nice movies…

Weekend ini nonton 2 film bagus: He’s Just Not That Into You dan The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

Sangat terkesan sama film yang kedua, terharu banget, such a beautiful story. Kayaknya bakal jadi one of my all-time favorite movies. :P

Scriptnya ada di sini.

Just for my future readings, I copied some lines from the movie.

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Daisy: “I’ll promise you I’ll never lose myself to self-pity again”

And I think right there and then she realized none of us is perfect forever.

She found peace.

…

What I think is, it’s never too late...or, in my case, too early, to be whoever you want to be...

There’s no time limit, start anytime you want...change or stay the same...there aren’t any rules...

We can make the best or worst of it...I hope you make the best...

I hope you see things that startle you.

Feel things you never felt before.

I hope you meet people who have a different point of view.

I hope you challenge yourself.

I hope you stumble, and pick yourself up.

I hope you live the life you wanted to...and if you haven’t, I hope

you start all over again.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Kelly

Theme song for the day: Kelly Clarkson – My life would suck without you

Gathering my motivation… I must get out from here with my head up high… :)

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

O tempo esta fechado

Sabtu 11 Juli 2009

Still on board the Atlantic Star. Woke up around 7am, talked to the company man, and he told me that he would try to put me in tomorrow’s flight. Today’s flight (which is actually yesterday’s flight that has been rescheduled) was already full, and actually depending on the course of weather during the day, no one’s quite sure if this flight was going to fly anyway.

I went down to the gym, walked for a while in the treadmill, tried to check my email, read a bit, and since I didnt have enough sleep the night before, I continued sleeping for 2 hours in the morning.

After lunch, I continued reading my books in the TV room. Had some conversation with some guys that were there. Most of them are interested with my profile… From which country I’m from, How long have I been here, Do I like it here, Don’t I miss my family, When was the last time I saw them… Is Indonesia a beautiful country, What language do you speak there, Is Indonesian similar to Mandarin/Japanese…

What I like about Brazilians is most of them are not shy/quiet/cold and they talk to me. So it is easier for me to make friends, considering I am not a very talkative person myself.

At night, I read again, this time in the dining room. Some people approached me and talked to me… asking me questions… (maybe out of curiosity too) You know, I really appreciate that… made me feel less alone.

Nothing much to say… just read read and read. Until I got tired and fell asleep.

P.S. The Sums of our days is quite an interesting book… Funny, touchy, tragic, wise… It’s actually about Isabel’s real life stories. She made me want to write more on my journal. Some day maybe, when my memory got weaker, I would have my journal to remind me of the amazing days.

Minggu 12 Juli 2009

The rig is moving even more. I almost fell in the shower just now.

Looked through the window and it seems that the weather’s still bad, most probably there won’t be any flight for today either. My mood sinks. :(  It’s becoming really boring here.

I’ve found a new way to spend the day, that is going to gym to run. Went there since Friday, and found it as an excellent way to let go of the guilty feeling I am having for eating so much and exercising so less on the rig. And now my legs and back are aching… How ironic, on the rig I run more distance than when I am on land. :p

Senin 13 Juli 2009

Finally!! The sky was clear and the sun was shining!!

I left with the chopper at 10.30 am. Arrived at the airport in Itanhaem around 12.00 pm. The flight took longer, cause we stopped at another rig on our way back to land. I tried to measure the distances between rigs and land by measuring the time needed to fly between them, but I lost count and fell asleep.

In Itanhaem, I was supposed to take a taxi and go to Sao Paulo. However, there’s an old guy from the rig (he works in another service company), who’s going to Sao Paulo too, so I thought it would be better to share the taxi, as it means less money spent (even though it’s reimbursable), safer as I wont be travelling alone, and less pollution too (the effect of reading Technology Futures published by Shell hehehe). He ordered a taxi by phone, and a taxi came and picked us up. This caused confusion, as some taxi drivers from the same taxi company are already there waiting in queue for passengers. As the result, we were told to pull over and to move to another taxi after 10 minutes driving away from the airport. I was pissed off and thought that this was really impolite, but then I realized that to the taxi drivers, taking people to Sao Paulo is like the big catch of the day (200-300 reais per trip), I mean, it matters. Sometimes I wonder, if this had happened in my country, probably it would have caused a fight between taxi driver. Geezzz…

I was confused when the old guy gave me the receipt for the taxi. The trip costs 190 reais. We shared the taxi, it actually didn't really matter who paid, cause our companies will pay the expenses for transportation. To be polite, we shared the cost, and so I gave him 100, the amount that he requested. But my receipt has 190 written on it, and I dont know how much is written in his. How come? I looked at the old guy with confusion, and he just said: “everything is correct, right?” and he walked away.

Oh great, that’s dirty.

I took the plane Sao Paulo-Rio and arrived in Rio around 6 pm. By 6.30 I was already at the hotel. I feel so glad that finally my two feet are back standing on solid ground, so I decided to take a walk. I stayed for a week on this hotel before, in September last year, when I was waiting for some news about my visa to go to Argentina. How time flies, and how so many things had happened after that time. I walked around the neighborhood. It’s in the city centre, and it was crowded with people commuting from work.

My comments on Rio’s city centre: unfriendly, dirty, crowded, and really shows the difference between the rich and the poor.

When it’s getting late, I saw homeless people started to arrange paper box on the sidewalk, preparing their beds for the night. There were many, many many homeless people, and that surprised me. They seemed to sleep in groups, and each group may consist of 10-15 people. How sad.

Selasa 14 Juli 2009

Took the van at 6am back to Macae. Turned out that the adventure was not over yet. About an hour away from Macae, the police stopped the van, wanted to check on the documents. They found that one document was missing, so they must confiscate the van until the problem is solved. So, the van and everybody in it were escorted to the police station in Cabo Frio (about 1-1.5 hrs from Macae). We waited there until another van came and picked us up and brought us to Macae. So, we stayed in the police station for about 2 hours (all of us-12 passengers, 2 of them are big bosses :D).

I finally arrived in Macae base at 13.30, hungry and tired. The trip has extended from the normal 3.5 hours to 7.5 hours!!

I am really really looking forward to the weekend. To rest, to sleep, and to get myself back into the civilized world :p

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Message in the bottle

14:00

Can’t sleep well last night. Earlier the company man told us that we’re gonna start pumping around early morning or after midnight, so around 9 pm I was already prepared to lie down and relax a bit before the job. Tried to read a book, it didnt make me fall asleep. Turned on the ipod, didnt help either… grmph… turned on my laptop, good thing the internet was working that time, though the connection speed is as slow as a dial-up.

Looked at some old pictures, browsed through some blogs, and it hit me how I really miss my friends… Fell asleep around 1 am (finally). Had various dreams, all strange dreams. Suddenly, Rafael, my colleague on board, woke me up to let me know that we’re about to start pumping soon.

With a part of my soul still in another world, I talked to him in Indonesian, telling him I’ll meet him by the unit asap… He was so confused… haha poor guy.

It was 8am, thank God, we didnt have to start pumping earlier. 7 hrs of sleep is supposed to be enough. Problem is, I didnt have time to brush my teeth, neither to wash my face. Geez, I must have looked very attractive.

The pumping itself went fast, 24 bbl of MEG with 0.4 bpm. I hardly touched the console. From where I stood, I looked around, and all I can see is blue vast ocean… all the way to the horizon. So here I have a question… I'm sure someone has thought about this and known the answer too… How much is the distance from the place where I stood to the horizon? How far is that point in the horizon?

All I can think of, it should be a function of the earth’s radius, and the altitude of my eyes. Well, maybe??

A note to myself: a guy on the rig told me that a helicopter can travel with a speed between 180-200 km/hr. So it is estimated that the rig is currently around 180 km from shore. (Probably less though, cause the airport in Itanhaem may not be the closest point from here to land)

15.30

The weather is not really good today. Really cloudy, windy, and sun is hiding itself from us. As I’ve expected, the flight to/from the rig for today is cancelled for safety reasons. According to the guy in the radio room (whom I asked last night), what affect helicopters more are visibility (cloudy, foggy, or clear), and not whether it rains or not. So even though it`s not raining yet here, looking at the grey clouds covering the sky, I am not surprised the flights were cancelled.

I went to talk to the company man, and he confirmed that tomorrow I may disembark. Yay!! A good news :) Imagine this, I`ve been staying here for only 5 days, and I just can't wait to go back to land. Whew, my respect goes to those people who manages to work off-shore for years.

OOT, today in Macae one of my colleagues (the one that adores Gudang Garam cigarettes) is celebrating his bday. And supposedly I am among the few from the base that got invited :) Too bad I'm gonna miss it.

I was shown a place on the rig where I can stay without coveralls and see the sea. How nice. I stayed there for a while, looking at a fishing boat that stays close from the rig, the distance is around 10-15 meters maybe. Interesting view, I can see some people on the boat, all with raincoats, and each is holding like a wooden stick for fishing. Surprised, I ask one of the guys I made friends here, how come they are doing that… I thought they would have just thrown a net… Isnt that faster and they can get more fishes that way? He told me that it depends on the type of fish they want to catch… Really? I guess I knew nothing about fishing… Interesting…

Quite a strong wind today and the sea is aggressive. I can see that the fishing boat is moving so much. I feel so fortunate that I am here, on the rig, and not there. And yet the fishing boat’s crew don't seem to get scared with this. They stand firmly, at the edge of the boat, throwing their baits to the sea. I wonder where they come from, do they come from a small city by the sea, just near Sao Paulo? Why do they want to do this? Do they come from a family of fishermen? Do they earn good amount of money? If they have a choice, will they do this job?

A few minutes before I was about to complain that the rig is small, I hardly can walk anywhere and that it moves a lot. After seeing this fishing boat, I know I better keep my mouth shut.

17:00

The fishing boat has gone. The sea is not blue now, it’s grayish, just like the color of the sky it is reflecting.

P.S. Finally I have time to post some writings from my days on Celtic Sea, put them in May.

Monday, July 06, 2009

From Macae to Itanhaem

Insyaallah besok aku ke off-shore lagi. Kali ini pumping job aja, dan kali ini bakal ngoperasiin unit sendiri. My first time, semoga ga bikin blunder, semoga equipment nya ga ada masalah… Amiin…

Perjalanan buat ke rig sudah dimulai hari ini. Pagi2 naik van ke Rio, jam 09.30 dari Macae. Di jalan sempet ngobrol2 sama seorang cewe Russia dari segmen D&M, yang mau ke rig juga di Rio. Nyampe Rio terus langsung ke airport Santos Dummont, buat naik pesawat ke Sao Paulo. Pertama kali nih ke airport ini, khusus penerbangan lokal. Kali ini naik TAM, pertama kalinya, biasanya aku selalu naik GOL. Lebih enak ya naik TAM (lebih mahal juga hehe), soalnya setidaknya dikasih makan siang, ga kayak GOL yang cuma dikasih kacang… huuu mana nendang :(

Di Sao Paulo juga turunnya di airport yang di tengah kota, dari atas kelihatan Sao Paulo kotanya gede banget, penuh gedung-gedung tinggi… Aduh kapan2 kalau ada waktu pengen juga jalan2 ke sini. Kan ada Bie ya yang tinggal di sini…

Next itinerary, aku ambil taksi ke Itanhaem, a small city just by the sea, sekitar 1 jam perjalanan. Mumpung masih ada waktu, aku jalan cari toko buku dulu di airport, mumpung di sini jual buku2 bahasa inggris Penting nih, selain untuk stok selama di rig, aku juga harus mulai menggalakkan semangat baca lagi… Udah lamaaa banget ga baca buku kayaknya. Ga sempet sih… :p

Nemu Brida – Paulo Coelho sama The Sum of Our Days – Isabel Allende. Entar diupdate deh, bagus atau engga buku2nya :D

Pas mau balik ke mau cari taksi, eh tiba2 ada yang manggil, ternyata Leandro! Temen main sesama Schlum yang mayan deket! Senengnya kok bisa ketemu di situ! Apalagi kita dah lama banget ga ketemu karena dia abis selesai training 2-3 bulan. Ternyata dia juga on his way to the rig, tapi rignya dia berangkatnya dari Vittoria. Jadi dia mau naik pesawat ke sana. Akhirnya kita makan bareng dulu, sebelum akhirnya misah. Ternyata dia sempet chat ama Karen (my flatmate) dan Karen bilang kalo aku lagi di Sao Paulo juga. What a pleasant coincidence. Nelpon Karen dari taksi, oh, you know, to me, she’s like my family here.

Naik taksi dari Sao Paulo – Itanhaem. Perjalanan 1 jam, sempet ada beberapa bagian yang indah deh, sungai2 membelah hutan dan gunung gitu... jadi keinget scene nya Lord of the Rings: the Fellowship of the Ring pas bagian akhir di mana mereka naik perahu menyusuri sungai. Aduuhh pengen jalan2... ga mau ke rig... hehehehe

Nyampe hotel sktr jam 5an sore, dan super ngantuk... Go straight to bed… dan baru bangun jam 07.30an malem. Untungnya, walaupun hotelnya tampak luar terlihat kurang meyakinkan, tapi ada wireless internet lho… Makanya bisa browsing2, chatting2, dan posting2… :D

Siap2 tidur dulu ah… Mulai besok akan kerja keras nih… Musti siap fisik dan mental… :p

Monday, June 22, 2009

Before Sunrise and Before Sunset

I believe one of the reasons why we like to read or watch movies is because we want to be inspired. Our life may be too monotonous, routine, and predictable sometimes, that we become thirsty of new experience and are welcoming the opportunities of tasting how the life outside our little world is.

It’s like, living our own life is not enough, I wanna know how others live theirs… I wanna know others’ fantasies on how others live.

Well, that’s what I think. At least it’s true for me.

Speaking of which, off course the list of inspiring books and movies will never have an end, and it will also be person- and time-related. But I suppose I’m allowed to mention a few on my list that I can think of right now, maybe any of you has the time and interest to check them out…

1. Eat, love, pray, a book by Elizabeth Gilbert

2. The art of travel, a book by Alain de Botton

3. Before Sunrise, and the sequel Before Sunset (two nice movies)

Have you ever been in a “one-thing-leads-to-another” moment? I mean, the kind of moments that you realize things happen as the consequence of a series of events in the past?

It was like the day when my passport was held by the Amsterdam airport police. Oh, never mind.

Anyway, how I ended up watching these 2 movies are an example. An old friend recommended me some years ago to watch a movie called Before Sunrise. I didn’t even bother to look up what it’s about. Then I read somewhere or in someone’s blog that this movie, Before (or after) sunrise had inspired her. Was reminded of my old friend’s advice. This all happened years ago.

Yesterday I went alone to the DVD rental. Normally I went with a friend, and we usually pick the films quickly. But yesterday I had time to look around, and since the DVDs that I wanted were all rented, I need to look in the section of older films. Then I saw it, Before Sunset… Got puzzled as I couldnt remember was it Before/after sunrise that my friend advised me years back? Or was it sunrise/sunset?? Heck, how come they made movies with titles that are so similar? Funny cause I’ve been to the store several times but have never seen it before. So I took it and watched it last night. Watched the prequel Before Sunrise on youtube this morning.

Yeah, it’s inspiring, the two of them. Must note that the 2nd movie was made 9 years after the first, which aligns to the story too, the couple met 9 years after their first meeting.

The reason why I’m mentioning these moments that are the consequences of events in the past is… because, it makes me see how things in the past have been irregularly arranged so that a certain moment can happen at certain time.  Not before, nor after.

Perhaps there’s a reason for it…

There’s always the best time for everything… right? It’s been arranged.

Among other things, the movies reminded me how I used to be so young and excited about life, so full of dreams, and how I was not afraid of anything, of taking risks and chances, of having feelings for others… how those years have slipped through my fingers…

I dont wanna be old, numb and bitter… No, no, no, no, no, no…

Must get the old me back…

Monday, June 08, 2009

Contemplative…

Entah kenapa aku ikut kepikiran dengan kecelakaan pesawat yang terjadi minggu lalu. Tiap beberapa jam selalu cek berita, ingin tau perkembangan terbaru. Beberapa malam ini suka mimpi yang aneh-aneh, berhubungan dengan pesawat, laut, dsb.

Mungkin karena Brazil.

Mungkin karena jalur yang sama yang aku lalui tiap kali pulang ke rumah.

Mungkin karena ada seseorang yang aku kenal.

Merasa diingatkan betapa semua ini begitu fana.

Asking myself, what am I gonna do in the time I have left in this life.

How am I gonna spent my life…

…

…

Oh well…

Let’s listen to some nice music… My picks for today :)

Mary J Blige – Be without you

Ivete Sangalo – Quando a chuva passar

Ivete Sangalo and Alejandro Sanz – Corazon partio

acoustic version (hmm siapa yang ga luluh kalo dinyanyin lagu ini hehe):

Alejandro Sanz – Corazon partio

 

Tomorrow’s a new day, a new week, hope it would be a nice one…

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

AF 447

Walaupun banyak kerjaan malam ini tapi tidak tahan rasanya untuk tidak menulis ini…

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiuun… My deepest condolence to the families and those affected by the disappearance of AF 447…

Ada seseorang yang aku kenal di pesawat tersebut, pegawai Schlum, walaupun kenal hanya sekilas. Aku pernah ikut workshop yang dipimpin sama dia, bulan Oktober lalu, tentang corporate culture. Dia sempat mention kalau istrinya pernah kerja di Indonesia. Beberapa lama kemudian, aku dikirimi buku, isinya cerita dan foto-foto indah tentang Rio de Janeiro.

Ga nyangka buku ini akan jadi kenangan.

Selamat jalan Andres, semoga Allah menerima segala amal ibadah dan mengampuni segala kesalahan... dan semoga istri dan keluarga diberi kekuatan... Amin.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Being Fragile...

Hi world, here I am… in Rio now…
After almost two weeks on board of CS, they said I should disembark on Friday (yesterday).
So I disembarked, right, just like the way they told me to… I arrived in Rio’s office. Sit in front of my computer for 2 minutes, and they told me that I will embark again on Monday… cause the next cement job there will be earlier than expected. Got no way to say agree or disagree, it has been decided. So, I just stayed relaxed, probably it’s a good opportunity anyway to see how they do surface casing in offshore.

I had lunch with some guys from Cementing that are based in Rio; the engineer that takes care of CS, my ex-mentor who is now based in Rio, another engineer from Macae who happens to be in Rio, etc. Got a bit sad, cause actually I arrived in the office feeling tired… tired from the off-shore work and all the tensions. And the guys didn’t ask me how I was doing, how the off-shore has treated me, etc. I know I shouldn’t expect that, but a bit of sensitivity would be nice. When I mentioned that the work has been quite though… that all those buckets are killing me… I understand that they try to tell me that I complain too much… that they had to do the same thing too before, and that I got paid better than them so I deserve this hard work. Gosh, did they forget one basic difference, that I am a WOMAN, and we’re not made to have the same strength? Probably they were just joking, but for sure they were not listening to what I was saying. So I stopped quickly, realized that these guys are not the proper people to talk these things to.

Following my ex-mentor’s advice (he’s always treated me nicely, respect him a lot), I stayed in Rio for the weekend. Talked to my flatmate on messenger, and she told me that a friend of ours happened to be in Rio too.

Went to Rio Scenarium at Lapa on Friday night. It was a really nice place, although it was full with tourists like us haha… There’s a live music there (a kind of samba, love it a lot), and the food was good. Had a really good time and good conversation. I envy my friend for two reasons: cause he seems to like what he’s doing and cause he’s good at it.

Today, I had lunch at Copacabana. The weather was a bit cold and cloudy, but the view and atmosphere was amazing as always. On my way back to Barra (where my hotel is located), the taxi drove along the beaches and coastline… Oh it was sooo beautiful… Rio is beautiful… It made me feel sentimental. I wish I can be in love here. I really wish.

Called my flatmate, too bad she had to cancel her trip to come and join me in Rio today, she had unscheduled meetings. Talked to her for a bit. She’s really nice, a really good friend. I feel blessed to have her around.

Spent some time in the shopping centre before going back to hotel in the afternoon. Suddenly I started to feel sad. Cried for reasons I couldn’t really understand. It couldn’t be PMS, it’s still too early.
Watched The Holiday on TV (Kate Winslett is really lovely there), some may say it’s too unreal, but I like it… I just wanna believe in these things, you know.

I hope I can be stronger, be more carefree and less sensitive.
I hope I can be one of those people who love and enjoy the thing they do for a living
I hope I can be good at and standout in my job, whatever that is/will be.

Anyway, I found a nice little store just around the corner of Copacabana that sells CDs, music books, books, souvenirs, everything that’s related to Bossa nova, Samba, Choro. Bought a Bossa nova CD there, listening to it right now, it’s really nice.
Some songs from the CD I bought can be found here. (I am amazed by the youtube database :p). The video is a bit cheesy but the music’s great. (I think)
Another one, like this one too: O nosso amor

One quick question: How can you be sensitive and yet care-free? They both seem to be on two completely different sides.

Oh, and I need to post some stories related to my experience offshore. ‘ll do that later.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Mas, Que Nada!

A nice classic Brazilian samba...
Love it!

Jorge Ben - Mas Que Nada

O ariá raio, Oba, Oba, Oba
Mas que nada, Sai da minha frente, Eu quero passar
Pois o samba esta animado, O que eu quero é sambar
Esse samba, Que é mixto de maracatu
É samba de preto velho, Samba de preto tú
Mas que nada, Um samba como esse tao legal
Voce nao vai querer, Que eu chegue no final
O ariá raio, Oba, Oba, Oba

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

On Celtic Sea

May 2, 2009 – Saturday

Met and got to know a guy who works with Subsea (ROV) on the rig. He’s from Aberdeen (similar accent like Sir Alan Ferguson but fortunately his is easier to catch). We’re taking on the same chopper to the rig.

He told me that before his current job, he used to work as a crew of a ship, travelling through many countries, then he worked as part of a subsea team, moving between different rigs, sometimes he works from a submarine (Geez) and only since a year ago he started to work in CS. And the best part is, he is only 23. You know, it made me think, this kid is 6 year younger than I am and yet he already has so much working experience! What have I been doing all these years???

An interesting fact. So this Aberdeen guy, his father works in Sakhalin, in oilfield. His granddad used to work in oilfield. His brother is working in oilfield. J (my friend from school, also from Aberdeen), works in oilfield, the father of J also works in oilfield. I wonder how many percentage of people in Aberdeen that have jobs that have nothing to do at all to the oilfield. :p

After waiting for almost 4 hours in the airport, we were told that the flight was transferred to the next day early morning.

May 3, 2009 – Sunday

Arrived at the airport around 6.15 am. Met B the Scottish guy again. This time we didn’t talk too much, we were too sleepy I guess.

Around 07.45 am, the chopper took off. There were only 3 people on board; me, B, and a guy who seems to be responsible with the saver cargo. The flight lasted around 1 hour. From above, the ocean looked beautiful. Can somebody please explain to me why seawater has different colors? As the rig became visible from a distance, it looked like a small object in the middle of a vast ocean.

As I arrived on board, I was greeted by many people and procedures. First, they check my ID, then the medical team check my registration and my data. Then I had so many presentations; Schweine Flu, HSE Orientation, etc etc. I was shown around the accomodation building, which really feels like a maze. So many stairs and turns, and I can really get lost in it! I was shown around the outside area and the main deck too.

Geez, you know, I learnt something today. The four directions; Forward, Starboard, Aft, Port. :)

Oh, and as today is Sunday, we had an emergency drill today. My designated boat in case of emergency is 1, with secondary boat number 3. It’s good that we had a drill today, as this is my first time offshore and I haven’t done this before.

Most of the people here are foreigners, and they speak English. The company men are A (who, miracoulously used to live in Pondok Cabe, Indonesia for 18 years), and W (night shift, American from his accent). Then there’s the captain… then the QHSE guys (a Canadian-American and a Brazilian who acclaimed that I look exactly like the natives from where he comes from, North-East of Brazil. Hey, do I look like an Indian?)

And then there’s D, the Cementer I’m gonna be working with. Oh, so far, he’s been treating me nicely, hope it’s gonna stay like this. He’s 38 years old, has worked in various segments. Got a 15 year-old daughter (guess that means she was born when he was 23).

Today we did some preparation for the job. We finished around 05.30 pm. At that time, as I gazed to the sea, you know, its color is just AMAZING. It’s blue. Blue Blue Blue, and I have no words to describe which kind of blue it is. Ocean Blue, maybe. Oh, I wish I have my camera with me (we’re not allowed to bring it unfortunately). Oh at least, I wish I’ll remember this sight for a loong time. A few minutes later, from the window of my cabin, I can see the sun started to set and the sky color turns into a degradation of yellow, pink, reddish orange, and blue… such an amazing view, and I cant help it, my eyes started to get wet.

I feel sublime, and I’m just speechless.

P.S. my arms are aching due to carrying cans weighing more than 20 kg one floor up through stairs, back and forth. Oh, I really don’t think this job is meant for women…

May 9, 2009 – Saturday

Actually there are a lot of things I want to say here, just that I didn’t have time and also strength to do it before. Where should I start?

We had to pump 5 cement plugs. The first two went smoothly, and then we had problems with the 3rd and 4th plugs. Downtime of 29 hrs, we’re totally stressed out. D and I almost didnt sleep for 2 nights straight. On the 3rd day, I was like a walking zombie… couldnt think straight and would have done whatever anyone told me to. There were some moments that I was so close to pick up the phone and call my boss to tell him that I quit. It seemed that the problem was the design of the slurry, which means that it is not necessarily our fault.

We finished pumping the 5th plug on Thursday morning. I felt sooooo tired, body and mind. But this experience really made me realize some things about this job that I used to overlook/ignore before.

May 10, 2009 – Sunday

Hari ini bangun siang lagi, sekitar jam 08.00. Abis ngga nyalain alarm sih, lupa. Hari ini kita buat STEM post-job. D taught me a lot of things. It was very nice of him.

Malemnya, pas makan malem, D cerita2 banyak tentang pengalamannya. Dia bilang kalo at this point of his life, he feels very content and he doesnt want anything else. Dia cerita juga kalo on his 1st marriage, he used to live working hard seeking more money for his family. Then he got divorced and he’s left with 75.000 $ debt. He was depressed and decided to change the way he lived. He was poor and save every money he has, to pay the debt. And he found out that at that time, he was even happier than before. So he learnt that money really doesn’t bring him happiness and that’s why he’s just doing this job cause he’s enjoying it and for the time-off (his schedule is 28-28 – 28 days on the rig and 28 days off at home). He said he can earn more if he stays and works in Canada. He keeps telling me that his family is the most important for him right now (i.e. his wife and 3 children).

However, psssstttttt… he said that his family hasn’t had the chance to visit Brazil so far… But, about 2 weeks ago, in Macae, I saw him going out from our apartment building while hugging a GIRL. Who could that be??? DASAR LELAKI!!!!!

May 11, 2009 – Monday

Today I woke up earlier, and that’s 07.00 am, haha.

Had breakfast then I went to the computer room. Check my emails for a while and we started working around our unit.

Geez, I guess I’m working with quite a perfectionist guy here. I mean, we’ve been cleaning the floor since yesterday. To me, it’s perfect as it is now. Oh well, so we cleaned the floor around the unit again, and he even bother to put some surfactant on it, as if it’s the floor of his own house, haha.

You know, I think my company should really maintain and treat this kind of employee. I’m sure not all FS takes as much care about the equipment and the job as he does.

In the afternoon, we arranged the new materials the base has sent us. There are some new spare parts, grease and oil, etc.

Then we started some maintenance with the triplex pump. Actually, today we’re just gonna open the valves up, and tomorrow we’re gonna continue with changing the seats.

I felt tired today, bringing all those spare parts down stairs tires me. Around 4 pm I guess, we stopped, I think he’s tired too.

I stayed outside for a while, looking at the sea and the anchors being pulled up. It’s quite interesting. Too bad I can’t bring my camera on board; otherwise I can show you how it’s like. Had a chat with a guy from another company called Brandt. It turns out he also doesn’t wanna be working offshore for a long period. He also mentioned about having little days off and irregular work schedule in his company. I guess, then it’s everybody’s problem, isnt it? Well, at least in the oilfield.

After I had a shower, D told me that the mechanic has arrived and that he doesn’t speak any English. I went down to the galley to meet him (Hercules). So I guess tomorrow I will be sort of a translator between the two guys. Sounds cool huh. Hope we’re not gonna be lost in translation.

At night, D told me that in 7 days we’re gonna do another cement job, 20” casing, and as soon as he got the files from G (the engineer in charge of the rig), he’s gonna pass it to me.

What I’m thinking: “What??!! Am I gonna be here for another 7 days or even more? Oh no…”

What I’m saying: “Oh really? That soon? Ok, that’s cool…”

:-S

Thursday, April 30, 2009

When I think about it…

When I think about it…

I feel like there are two invisible hands, grasping my two ankles firmly.

Keeping me from running away with my two feet; away, away from this place.

I don’t know what the two hands represent; is it courage, is it faith, or is it madness?

I’m not sure what gonna happen first; will the grip weakened… or will the desire to go is too strong that the invisible hands are finally defeated?

Admittedly, I’m scared. With a lot of things.

I`m going offshore tomorrow. Will everything going to be ok there? Oh, I hope I won’t suffer too much.

The job is too stressful sometimes, no margin for error. Is life outside like this? Does a job with less/little risk and more comfort exist actually?

What’s gonna happen to me, with my life, with my future? Why am I living a life that’s different? Why do I keep making decisions that is putting myself and my future and thus my happiness at risk?

oh God… please… help…

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Restless

One of the greatest misfortunes in life is to be good in something you don’t like..

Your values are the most important and critical aspect of your career orientation.

If you want to enhance certain skills, you can work on it. Similarly, you can change your interests, devoting time on those interests you would like to create, acquire or strengthen, you can develop your personality, but you can not change your Values. (mayan juga nasehat si Bapak India di internet…)

You are what you repeatedly do.

Waduh… abis mikir sana-sini… bingung sama diri sendiri, sebenernya yang dimau-in apa sih??

Courage. Be tactical.

Ah, apaan sihh??

Ujung-ujungnya pusiiing tujuh keliliingg…

My wish for the night: would like to feel peace, tranquility

Monday, April 06, 2009

this and that

Sedikit rekapitulasi keadaan seminggu terakhir…

It’s been quite a though week at work... Though in the sense… dealing with the types of people here. Being treated as a newbie… berasa seperti di-OSPEK… hahaha… my motto these days: “Every new start is always difficult…so hang on, things are gonna get better soon…”

Sekitar hari Rabu nyaris pengen nangis di kantor, untung ada Carla, temen cewek sekantor yang beda segmen… tempat melepaskan uneg-uneg kerjaan… Hari Kamis, managerku habis meeting sama Manager se-Brazil dan bilang kalo company kita lagi krisis… things are bad… kemungkinan bakal terjadi perubahan struktur gaji dan relokasi orang2… Langsung mikir that I’m in a deep shit…

Tambah ga tahan karena setelah mendengar berita tsb, cowo2 sekantor yang orang Brasil… notabene my teammates, langsung mulai complain2 tentang banyak hal… mulai ngomongin seorang trainee orang Aussie yang dianggap ngga bisa kerja dan bergaji besar, ngabis2in duit aja… They are so mean, you know… so arrogant dan so jealous ama orang lain.

Dislike them directly, karena sadar mereka soo mean… karena this Aussie guy is actually a nice person, and I know that his only problems are language barrier and not receiving enough guidance/directions… dan juga sadar bahwa behind my back, mereka juga pasti suka ngomongin aku… wondering kenapa cowo2 di segmenku kok begini2 tipenya… (Rata2 cuma cowo2nya lho ya) Ah, HR, you’re recruiting the wrong type of people…

Talked to a friend on internet, dapet kabar kalo a friend of ours who’s working in Mexico got released… pdhal dia bareng aku mulainya. Dan weekend lalu kita masih chat, dan dia masih cerita2 tentang kerjaannya, betapa sibuk dan capek bgt dan dia benci itu… hmm pdhal rencana awal tadinya dia mau ditransfer ke Brazil lho :(

Denger-denger gosip juga kalo company ku mau release 6000 org worldwide dalam waktu dekat… dengar ini dari beberapa resources yang berbeda-beda… walaupun kebenarannya ga dapat dipertanggungjawabkan, tapi tetep aja bikin tambah resah… :P

Totally ironic… sebenernya ga suka2 amat ama kerjaan ini… tapi begitu dihadapkan ama kemungkinan release dsb… jadi cemas dan melihat kalo kerjaan ini berharga…
Pasrah sih… whatever will be… will be… mudah2an itu yang terbaik…

Anyway, jadi keinget omongannya my recruiter, beberapa bulan setelah aku masuk, pas waktu itu lagi banyak gelombang orang-orang direlease atau mengundurkan diri… Dia bilang bahwa ga ada yang namanya 100% job security… Di bidang apa pun kita kerja dan di posisi apa pun… mau sbg trainee, engineer, manager, CEO, whatever… Kita harus siap kalo sewaktu2 things got bad…

Come to the weekend… things got really nice. On Friday night, I had a nice dinner with a couple of good friends here: Carla and her brother, Leandro, and Karen (my flatmate)… Feel blessed… this kind of things will not happen in Sao Mateus…

On Saturday, there’s a barbecue party on top of our apartment building, where the swimming pool is… Talked and got to know some new people from the office… (Menyadari bahwa ga semua orang punya behaviour seperti cowo2 mean-arrogant-jealous dari cementing and felt happy about it haha…)

Btw, a few days ago, I had a conversation with my flatmate about boys… (standard theme)… and she said that I should wait… wait patiently and not to think about it too much. Cause according to her experience, when the time is right, he is gonna show up, just like that, as if he’s fallen from the sky… haha… sounds too good to be true… but I prefer to believe that for now…

Tadi malam mimpi pergi nonton teater di satu gedung di Eropa… (ada2 aja)… jadi kangen ama teman2 dan masa2 indah di sana. Buka facebook dan lihat foto2 teman2 waktu di Europe... jadi tambah kangen... Kalo kerja di Europe, sepertinya memungkinkan ya untuk dapet regular work hours, free Saturday-Sunday, dan banyak vacation days… jadi bisa jalan2 keliling… hehehe…

Yah begitulah, cerita-ceritaku hari ini...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Advice needed

Have been about a week in Macae.

Waktu mau berangkat, tekad dah bulat, meyakinkan diri kalo emang ini the way it should be… aku masih harus ambil kesempatan ini, get more experience, sambil nunggu krisis ini mereda dan pasar tenaga kerja bergairah lagi.

Pas transit di Dubai, sempet liat covernya majalah Newsweek dan Times… dua2nya bilang, intinya: “right now your job is your biggest asset”. Tambah yakin kalo emang sekarang bukan saatnya manja2 dan mikir macem-macem. I’m lucky to be employed…

Otw to Macae, and I started to think… “GOD, what was I thinking?… how can I put myself in this situation again? to be alone, far from everybody… I must be out of my mind…”

So now, after a few days… things are fine, but still a bit awkward. I’m new again here, and therefore I have to adjust to everything again, learn things quickly and assure everyone that I can work.

And most importantly, I must bear those “things”. Bear being treated like a newbie, bear being talked about behind my back (you know, sama lah kayak di Indo kita juga suka ngomongin orang2 asing di kantor :D), bear the long work hours, the loneliness, the pressure…

And for the thousandth time, I find that I just dont want to stay in operations. I really hate the long work hours and having to work on weekends. Unfortunately, in this job, there’s no way I can escape operations before I reach the end of my training period of about 3 yrs in the company (which is 16 months to go).

Sabtu kemaren sempet got a small nervous breakdown hehe… and then realized that I think I need to be more calm and relaxed plus santai dan bermuka tebal… Thinking of trying yoga, mumpung ada temennya nih… 

Oh ok, so the point is, I know I should move. But to where? To Indonesia? To another country, for the sake of a better living condition?

and when? now, or after the crisis is over, or in 16 months?

And how does the quest of finding soulmate should really affect this decision? :P

I really want to plan this from now. Otherwise I'll feel that I’m stuck here, and that’s soooo bad.

My dearest friends, do you have any advice or anything to say on this? Please lemme know, I’d really really appreciate it… japri aja yah, to my email…

Many many thanks before…

Below are some pics from Macae. The view from the balcony and the view from a restaurant where I had lunch yesterday… Nice…

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Saturday, March 21, 2009

…

Somebody…

please…please…please…

save me from here… give me a reason to go…

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Macae, here I come!!

Jadi inget, sekitar 3 tahun yang lalu, di bulan-bulan ini juga, sore-sore, semangat curhatku sedang tinggi-tingginya.
Dan seorang temanku yang baik, yang setengah India setengah Portugal itu, jadi korbannya. Setengah terpaksa mendengarkan cerita dan keluh kesahku, tentang karir, jodoh, masa depan. Hal-hal standard itulah.

Ketika aku selesai, dia menasehatiku, diantaranya yang tidak akan terlupa: "Indri, always listen to your gut feelings..."

Walau sebenarnya bukan petuah baru, but it touched me deeply that time.
(haha... terima kasih yaa... entah kenapa beberapa hari terakhir jadi keinget lagi sama conversation kita waktu itu...)

P.S. Anyway, besok aku kembali ke Macae. Another new start. Bismillah...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sekilas…

Sedang merasa sangat bersyukur atas berita yang diterima hari ini.

Semoga ini memang jalan yang terbaik.

Semoga dilancarkan jalannya, dan semoga bisa perform sebaik2nya…

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Friday, after lunch…

KTC classroom, after 3 days having classes in the hotel due to the recent ice storm…

We’re having the whole afternoon free today, and are supposed to work on our individual project…

But my mind is somewhere else…
Thinking about things beyond this classroom… behind these walls…

About this job, and what it has made me so far…
About the crisis, and how each and every one of us in the company is not immune to being laid-off despite of how we’ve performed and where we’re assigned to.

About how impressed I am; for two weeks I’ve been taught by instructors who are very knowledgeable in their own area, and the fact that they come from countries like: India, Brunei, US, Nigeria, Myanmar… How a colleague from UK praised my fellow Indonesian on her expertise in her job…

So there’s absolutely no reason for us, third world countries citizens, to feel not confident in competing with people from developed countries… Seriously… (I’m talking to myself here :D)

Most of the times, it’s so clear to me that there’s no way I can live like this for a longer term. That I should take the 1st opportunity I have to get away and settle down.
But, sometimes, especially when I look up to some of my seniors in the company, I often end up asking myself, how come they are all sooo good? Were they already this good when they started years ago? Or this company made them good? Will I be like them if I continue to stay in this company? Will I be as good, as smart, knowledgeable, admirable?

I want to be like them… Will I ever be, if I stay…???

And I just realized that my priorities have changed compared to when I attended the 1st course in UK about a year ago… Less ambitious… Don’t care too much about being accepted by the group… Don’t wanna get stressed out with the course (aha, maybe this one’s not too good hehe) What important to me now is that I am content… that I am happy… that I’m always true to myself about everything…

About the future that seems so unclear to me… Will I ever get married and settle down… Or, is that kind of life just not meant for me, and that it’s for the best… I mean, who knows, right?
And that the problem now is how I can prepare myself for this kind of life… being alone... am I ready for it… for all the consequences?

A promise; I will (try) not to compare my life with somebody else’s… some got it easier, some had it harder… in the end all we can do is just try to make the best out of the chance that’s given to us…

Ahh… another pointless writing from Tulsa…
Maybe I should just drop it and enjoy my weekend instead…

Monday, January 26, 2009

Been in Tulsa for a week

Hello world,

Udah seminggu ini terdampar somewhere in Tulsa.
Nothing much to share or tell... Kegiatan sejauh ini cuma tiap pagi jam 7 naik bus ke training centre, stay di sana sampe jam 17.30, trus pulang dan nyampe hotel jam 6an. Kadang belajar, kadang siap2in presentasi, kadang belanja ke Walmart…
Kelas lumayan besar, total kita ber-enambelas. Beda banget ama school pertama dulu yang cuma 9 orang, dan akhirnya tersisa 8 orang.
Temen2 sekelas dari macem-macem, ranging from Indonesia, China, Africa, Latin America, Eastern and Western Europe, and US. A very multicultural experience.
Yang menarik, 50% atau 8 orang peserta nya cewek. Banyak juga, padahal biasanya satu kelas itu paling ceweknya cuma 1-3 orang.

Kalau boleh komentar, instructornya ga gitu ok ngajarnya, yang bikin gue sedikit kecewa. He just can’t make the lessons interesting, yang membuat gue berkali2 nyaris tidur gara2 bosen. Not that I didn’t try to keep myself interested :D

Trus, awalnya gue ngerasa kesel banget ama situasi yang membuat gue ga bisa punya enough field or design experience. Maksudnya, gara2 masalah visa ini, selama 6 bulan belakangan ini situasi gue boleh dibilang ngambang2, dilempar ke sana sini… Jadinya gue terhambat buat belajar2, dan bisa dibilang kurang pengalaman dibanding my colleagues.
Ah, whatever lah ya, after a while, I decided that I shouldn’t care too much about it. Just do the course, give my best shot, and enjoy my time in US… hehe…

Anyway, the instructor made a comment that a week before the course, he checked in the database if all the participants are still in the company and if there’s a change in the number of students. Bukan apa-apa, sekarang ini company ku emang lagi melakukan banyak lays-off… as the effect of the global financial crisis and the downfall of oil price.
Got nothing to say on that. Just feeling lucky that so far I’m still here, having this job. Who knows what gonna happen tomorrow is… pasrah aja deh.

Anyway, Sabtu kemaren I went to one the shopping malls in Tulsa, together with 4 other girls from my class. We did some shopping, and I fell in love with Victoris’s Secret (telat dan norak banget ya hehe). Believe it or not, diantara kita berlima yang pergi, belanjaan ku yang paling sedikit lho… *bangga* ehehehe… mungkin karena yang 2 orang Eropa, dan disana harga barang2 lebih mahal dibanding di sini… yang orang Algeria mau married bulan Juni, dan kebiasaan di sana, kalo married sang istri harus datang ke rumah suami dengan baju dan barang2 yang baru semua (oh no… berat bgt modalnya mo married di sana)…

Mo comment aja, di sini susah banget mau kemana-mana tanpa mobil :(
Beda banget ama Europe. Bangunan letaknya jauh-jauhan, dipisahkan ama tanah2 kosong dan lapangan parkir… Public transport juga bisa dibilang nyaris ga ada. Mungkin kalau di kota besar keadaannya lebih baik…

Masalahnya, considering current temperature, hmm… males bangettt mau keluar2 jalan kaki… Sebagai contoh, Jumat malam kita keluar makan di restoran… baru jalan 5 menit kuping gue udah mati rasa, tangan pedih, dan pas pulang turun hujan es (bukan salju), sakit banget kena muka… Huh perjuangan berat sekali mau makan keluar jalan 10 menit… :(

Hmm… so I guess I better stop this gibberish writing… and start do something more useful, like checking if my laundry’s done yet… So, tchau for now, catch u all later…

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Septicemia

Tragic story.
And it happened in less than a month.
Brazilian amputee model dead at 20
Link from Wikipedia.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Handil, beginning of 2009...

listened to this song at dawn, coming from a radio in a boat at the public jetty...
The sky was grey, dark clouds hanging low...
Heavy rain was coming...










Ayo, mari kita mengumpulkan semangat dan rasa optimis...
melupakan orang-orang lama yang pernah hadir...
menghapus sakit hati, segala kenangan buruk, kenangan indah, rasa kecewa itu...
Wanna fall in love again, like I've never been hurt before...


engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
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[Peter Pan - Menghapus Jejakmu]

Thursday, January 01, 2009

New Year

Kali ini aku ada di Balikpapan. Setelah resiko bakalan ngelewatin malam tahun baru di field, untungnya tanggal 31 pagi aku bisa pulang dari Handil dan sampe di Balikpapan siang.
Ke kantor pajak untuk ngurus NPWP, ditemenin my house mate (yang orangnya mengingatkan sama si huni di Berlin, galak en judes tapi sebenernya sweet :p)
Abis itu kita santai2 di rumah, nungguin pacarnya my housemate dateng... yup, tonight I’m gonna be the violin player... heheh… or the one holding the candle in the candlelight dinner… :P
Berangkat dari rumah sekitar jam 6 lewat terus ke Hypermart dulu belanja2 kebutuhan.
Abis itu kita had dinner di Blue Sky (Hmm Mim pasti dah kenal ya ama tempat ini), makan tepanyaki… hmmm Nyummmyyy sekali… Kalo soal makanan, emang ga ada yang ngalahin Asian Food lah, dan Macae kalah jauh banget dari Balikpapan dalam soal ini… hehe
Tepanyaki-nya langsung dimasak di depan kita gitu… Dimulai dengan seafood salad (off course sebelumnya untuk jaga2 gue udah makan Norit… ga lucu kan Tahun Baru mata or bibir bengkak karena alergi), terus vegetable tepanyaki, trus salmon, trus udang (mantapp… udangnya besarr), trus miso soup (enak banget juga), trus tenderloin steak, trus fried rice. Abis itu, setengah jam kemudian ada ice cream yang dibungkus adonan tempura....

Pokoknya kenyang banget, dan puas. Abis itu kita denger2 live music sebentar di lobby bawah, trus pulang. Di komplek staff house kita juga ada acara makan2 dan barbeque gitu. Jadi kita ke sana begitu nyampe rumah. Ga begitu banyak orang sih di sana, and it’s a bit quiet, but it’s alright. Ngobrol2 bentar terus kita balik ke rumah.

Gue sih udah ngantuk banget. Nonton TV bentar bareng2 Jess and her BF, Da Vinci Code, dan ga sampe 10 menit film mulai, gue udah tidur depan sofa.

New Year Resolutions? Ga ada.
Just prayers, semoga tahun ini lebih baik dari sebelumnya, kita semua selalu sehat2, tambah sukses dan bahagia. May God bless us all… Amiinn…