Advice needed

Have been about a week in Macae.

Waktu mau berangkat, tekad dah bulat, meyakinkan diri kalo emang ini the way it should be… aku masih harus ambil kesempatan ini, get more experience, sambil nunggu krisis ini mereda dan pasar tenaga kerja bergairah lagi.

Pas transit di Dubai, sempet liat covernya majalah Newsweek dan Times… dua2nya bilang, intinya: “right now your job is your biggest asset”. Tambah yakin kalo emang sekarang bukan saatnya manja2 dan mikir macem-macem. I’m lucky to be employed…

Otw to Macae, and I started to think… “GOD, what was I thinking?… how can I put myself in this situation again? to be alone, far from everybody… I must be out of my mind…”

So now, after a few days… things are fine, but still a bit awkward. I’m new again here, and therefore I have to adjust to everything again, learn things quickly and assure everyone that I can work.

And most importantly, I must bear those “things”. Bear being treated like a newbie, bear being talked about behind my back (you know, sama lah kayak di Indo kita juga suka ngomongin orang2 asing di kantor :D), bear the long work hours, the loneliness, the pressure…

And for the thousandth time, I find that I just dont want to stay in operations. I really hate the long work hours and having to work on weekends. Unfortunately, in this job, there’s no way I can escape operations before I reach the end of my training period of about 3 yrs in the company (which is 16 months to go).

Sabtu kemaren sempet got a small nervous breakdown hehe… and then realized that I think I need to be more calm and relaxed plus santai dan bermuka tebal… Thinking of trying yoga, mumpung ada temennya nih… 

Oh ok, so the point is, I know I should move. But to where? To Indonesia? To another country, for the sake of a better living condition?

and when? now, or after the crisis is over, or in 16 months?

And how does the quest of finding soulmate should really affect this decision? :P

I really want to plan this from now. Otherwise I'll feel that I’m stuck here, and that’s soooo bad.

My dearest friends, do you have any advice or anything to say on this? Please lemme know, I’d really really appreciate it… japri aja yah, to my email…

Many many thanks before…

Below are some pics from Macae. The view from the balcony and the view from a restaurant where I had lunch yesterday… Nice…