Nonton di Freiluft Kino

Malem kemaren aku nonton di Freiluft Kino, aka layar tancep. Asik juga, nonton Moulin Rouge auf Deutsch. Bareng bareng ama Nurul, Fuji, Novi, Heny dan Andi. The film is soo nice, soo beautiful, sooo romantic, and such a pathetic love story (for me… cause you know that I really hate sad endings). Tidur-tiduran di pelatarannya Rathaus Markt. So memorable…

Semuanya masih sama. The same place we went to two days ago. The same buildings, the same view. The Brazilian cocktail seller is still there. The 60-cent ice cream shop is still there. Semuanya masih sama, kecuali dia. He's not here anymore. He's not in this city…
I went home with S-bahn. Coincidentally, I sat at the same position as two nights before. The different thing was, next to me was Nurul, and not S. And, he didn't stand in front of me, like last time. The space in front of me was empty…

I still can see his smile, his gestures…
This feeling will go away, I'm sure…
It will fade, and then disappear…
But for now, let me enjoy this feeling… let me feel it…

Finally...

 
Finally… he's leaving… And I just said goodbye to him… Oh I feel so sad…
Ok ok… let's say this, let's repeat this over and over again…
People come and go in your life for a reason
People come and go in your life for a reason
People come and go in your life for a reason
People come and go in your life for a reason
Don't worry… Life goes on, you'll be alright…
But… but… uwaaaaaaaaa………
Hikshikshiks
And here I am, walking home, crying..

and I asked God why...

Tadi pagi aku ke dokter gigi lagi. Kali ini buat tambal gigi yang lain. Dan, ya ampuuunn... lubangnya parah parah deh... ternyata gigiku ini emang ga beres banget. Thank God, sekarang aku ngerasa agak lega. At least, gigiku udah ditangani ama dokter gigi, dan terpercaya pula.
 
Dipikir pikir, ada baiknya juga ya gigiku kemaren patah. Kalo engga, aku ga bakal ke dokter gigi kan, dan ga bakal dicek kan semua lubang lubang dan tambelannya. Dan juga, ga bakal ketahuan kan kalo ada sesuatu yang musti dioperasi di akar gigi sebelah kanan itu.
 
Ya ampuun... bener bener deh, everything happens for a reason. Jadi inget, waktu gigi gue patah itu, I asked God why this should happen to me here in Germany. Why me? Why now?
 
Now I got the answers.... Makasih banyak Tuhan...

The tide is high but I'm moving on...

During the 24 years of my life, many people have come, and many have gone away. Some stayed only for a while, some stayed much longer, but however they have a strong memory in my heart...
 
To all those people out there, I just want to say,
that we met for a reason, that we become separated for a reason, and that your presence bring a certain influence on me, and it makes me become the person I am today.
So please allow me to say thanks, for... just being YOU 
 
P.S
This writing is dedicated to a bestfriend of mine who is leaving soon. Just in case we won't be bestfriends again later on...

Should think about the future now...

Finally I've finished all my exams. It's now time to move on, I guess. It's time to reorganize my life, do some planning, and think about my future.
I have to leave my old me, and be a new person.
It is a promise I made for myself. I have to change.
I reach the point that I become so sick of how I reacted on things and problems.
Please just remember Denver. He has changed too, he told me so. He has quited smoking, drinking, and he said he thought much about his future. And Denver is even younger than me you know. Oh how I was so left behind...
I think I should do the same thing...
please wish me luck...