Hi blog,

Hari ini hari terakhir di base. Udah say goodbye sama beberapa orang sejak hari kamis kemarin.

Hari ini lagi ga puasa. Makan siang sama Bruno dan Wilmar di tempat namanya casa Alemã, translated as German house. Tapi di sana makan Feijoada. Aneh ya, masak makanan Brazil tapi di german house.

Lagi berasa deket sama mereka bedua, teman2 yang baik hati.

Aduh, jadi sedih. Ngga ada lagi Gilvan yang suka nyela2 tapi kocak. Ga ada lagi Carlos yang kadang galak & nyebelin tapi kadang baek banget. Ga ada lagi Paulo Roberto yang suka manggil2 gue Indiana Jones. Ga ada lagi Jackson yang baek tapi ganjen. Bruno yang perhatian dan baek hati tapi kalo udah stress jadi tegang banget. Pedro dan Sergio yang selalu ngajak2 tomar gelota… dan tidak ada lagi engineer super ganteng yang (sayangnya) sudah pake cincin di jari manis kanan… heheh

Siangnya I stayed di base, dan pulang bareng Bruno. Di rumah sendirian. Aduh, berasa hampa banget. Lagi-lagi, aku sendirian. Minggu depan, I will be alone again.
Kembali ke situasi dimana : nobody cares, nobody knows me, nobody understands me… etc.

Sebenernya gpp, it’s okay. I have to get used to it. Cuma kadang, I wish that one person will stay… stay with me along the way. Cause I wish I can be heard, I wish I can be understood…

Malemnya, entah kenapa, kebayang2 Macae… kebayang engineer sangat tidak ramah yang tinggal bareng gue waktu itu… kebayang orang2 yang tidak ramah di base… kebayang kota macae yang kecil dan ga ada apa apa… kemana2 jauh dan semua orang punya mobil kecuali gue…

Ah, I better stop right now.. Sekarang yang penting belajar buat entrance test, that’s it that’s all.

You’re going away, and I am sad. We will miss you here. Tomorrow, after the job, I’ll teach you everything about pump. ‘Cause you’re going to be my boss someday, so therefore I want you to have good qualifications. I want that you pass your school. And then maybe, well, I hope, you got transferred here again.

Said by one of the pump operators

Touchy banget, I felt like crying right there and then… Untung masih bisa menahan diri…

Aduh hari ini bener2 deh. Ngerasain macem2.
Malem2 ditelp, katanya bakal dijemput jam 4 pagi buat ke base, ada job.
Buset deh, udah mepet gini, gue masih disuruh ke field, sempet memaki2 manager gue dalam hati (kebiasaan buruk).

Ternyata musti siapin cement mix plus other chemicals dulu. Dan kayaknya gue ga ikut ke field, karena fieldnya jauh.

My eyes got wet waktu lagi bediri2 di halaman tempat aku biasa kerja. Ga kerasa, minggu depan udah musti cabut. Ke Rio untuk ngurus visa, and then back to Macae.

Bayangin, pre-school cuma 2 bulan (pendek banget dibanding orang lain rata2) . Di Negara yang bahasanya gue ngga ngerti. Dan minggu depan udah musti entrance test. Kasarnya ginilah, kalo ga lulus tes... duh ga tau deh what's gonna happen... Huhuhu… tegang bo’… gimana nih…

Hari ini pas pagi2 sempet ngerasa sedih dan lemes banget. Bayangin aja, tidur jam 1 karena belajar bangun jam setengah 4 buat siap2 ke base. Capek karena banyak kerjaan dan juga orang2 yang biasanya baek kalo udah stress jadi rada nyebelin semua…

Lalu, ditambah lagi, I hurt myself. Mungkin faktor capek dan banyak pikiran kali ya, jadinya ga ati2… Ceritanya aku mo bantu buka tutup pipa gitu and ternyata tutupnya berat, jauh dari yang gue expected it would be, jadinya jari ku sempet kepencet sedikit. Tapi ya, beneran deh, kalo benda berat, dan besi pula, semua efek jadi berlipat ganda. Jariku sakit banget dan bedarah gitu. (Padahal aku pake gloves, ngeri juga ngebayangin apa yang terjadi seandainya ga pake gloves). Untung sedia tensoplast. Jadi langsung dicuci, dikompres pake air (not a good idea sebenernya, soalnya air mengandung banyak bakteri but I couldn’t think of anything else) dan ditutup. Pronto. Langsung pake gloves lagi, back to work, and pretend seakan2 tidak terjadi apa2.

Yeah, itu deh worst part-nya. Kalo you get yourself hurt, you’ll be in trouble (dan juga orang yang bertanggung jawab sama kita). So, daripada urusan jadi panjang, mendingan diem2 aja deh… Laen kali, walaupun lagi capek dan mood lagi down kayak hari ini, harus selalu ati2…

Apa ya yang gue mau tulis di sini…

Mungkin message pertama, never believe the first impression you get from a person kali ya… soalnya orang yang tadinya gue sempet sebel banget nget ternyata salah satu orang yang paling baek sama gue selama gue di sini.

Ga tau mau tulis apa lagi.
Maybe later gue akan update2 kabar lagi.
Oh, one more thing, doain yah teman2, semoga semua berjalan lancar: modul2, entrance test, my trip back to Macae, everything…

Update:

All the guys are going to operations tonight. There are two operations btw, one in Pilar, one in Carmapolis. And I’m not going. My manager doesn’t want me to go. He said he doesn’t want anything to happen to me or that I’ll get hurt. (Mungkin karena mau ke Macae bentar lagi kali ya? Tp emang kenapa juga?)

Aduh barusan abis say goodbye with the guys that are going to a job in Pilar. Untungnya, hal yang aku takutkan yaitu menangis di depan mereka tidak terjadi.

Barusan abis taro bbrp foto di blog ini. :)
Ah, weekend sungguh cepat berlalu...
Baru ngerasain tidur di kasur lagi tadi pagi. Minggu ini betul2 capek. Nyaris tidur berdiri.
Tapi aku seneng2 aja.
Kalo yang capek cuma badan, ga masalah. Harus tidur dan makan yang banyak.

good nite everyone...

Lesson learned # 1
Jangan dengerin apa kata orang tentang orang lain. People talk all the time anyway. Trust your own judgment and act according to your own instinct. Even so, you still can be wrong.

Lesson learned # 2
People are never satisfied with their bosses, and they will always complain about different things. It’s normal.

Lesson learned # 3
The only way to enjoy job/field operations is to become friends with your team mates and be comfortable around them.

Aracaju

At this point, I have to say, I’m happy to be here, in Aracaju.

I’m staying in an apartment with 2 girls who are really really nice. They both speak English very well and always consider me whenever they are planning in going out or doing things together.

My mentor, the cementing engineer here, is a fun person. A bit ‘loco’ I should say. :)
He makes jokes all the time, which makes my day seem brighter.

My manager here is also nice. He is helpful and cares a lot about me.
I don’t get to meet him too often these days, he is very very busy.

And the most important thing, I’m enjoying every job (field operations) that I went too. I feel like I understand more and more; I get to know the guys (the crews) better and start to feel comfortable being with them (and I hope they feel the same way about me).
Alhamdulillah, aku ga merasa terintimidasi lagi sama mereka. Ga nyangka, dibalik sikap dan pembawaan mereka yang rude dan kasar, ternyata di dalamnya baik hati.

Thanks so so much, God.

Oh, I don’t wanna go back to Macae. I hope my boss there will let me stay here longer.

P.S.

A special thanks to a pumptruck operator in Aracaju, yang awalnya gue ga suka karena kasar, ga sabaran trus nyolot bgt. Ternyata dia sabar banget nerangin tentang pump sama gue, berusaha pake portuguese yang sesimple2nya dan rela ngulang berkali2 sampe gue ngerti. Makasih yaaa... you've made my day...

Duh... baru tau, ternyata salah satu (dari sekian banyak) prerequisite buat school adalah:
active participation in safety meeting, meaning: present a topic related to safety in front of everybody... the bosses, the engineers, the crews... in Portuguese.
(It doesn't make any sense to do it in english, cause the crews won't understand)

OMG, I feel like crying huhuhu... I'm just going to humiliate myself there... in front of EVERYBODY...
They will laugh at me for sure. It's going to be a big joke.
Why this has to happen again? I thought BASF was going to be the first and the last.